Talentless pt. 1

Okay, so I have practically given up on this blog. I have not looked at it in months, but I wasn't doing anything today, and I realized that it's as good as any day to update it. So I am now reinventing my blog. No more teenage-angst-filled-depressing quotes! Though I am a depressed, angsty teenager, there is no reason for my blog to reflect that.

And my first new-and-improved (it's still a mystery how something can be NEW and IMPROVED at the same time) blog post will be about talent or more specifically a lack-thereof. The name of the blog is samistalentless afterall. I am Sam, and I am talentless. It's as simple as that.

So here is the 1st of many other blog posts listing down talents that have eluded me.

1) Singing
Believe me, I love music as much as the next person. I appreciate good music. I sing in the showers, when no one's listening, or when i feel like belting a tune with my friends. I still use the mic when playing bandhero, but trust me these are no indication to my singing abilities. My lacking abilities are not the result of not trying or practicing though, I was just born this way, thanks to two parents who can't carry a tune either. So after numerous voice classes, choir auditions, and being compared to a person having a stroke when singing, I have realized that singing is definitely not for me. So goodbye to any dreams of becoming a super pop superstar like Beyonce or Madonna. No more chances of being a grungy, struggling music artist playing in small cafes waiting for his big break. I can't ever be a a part of a band, or at least the lead singer of a band, the only relevant person in a band in my opinion. Goodbye to any dreams of ever doing theatre. I can't even skyrocket to instant fame (the 15-minute-variety of course) through silly reality Tv singing shows that will suck my soul out of me. Nope none of that for me.

NO MORE EMO POSTS!!!!

Because...

http://iamawesome.com/

Miss Invisible

I saw my friend, Adriann's, blog post and i thought it was a good idea to put up lyrics to a song that explains what I'm constantly feeling. It's a teenager thing, but nonetheless, I couldn't ever put my feelings into words as beautiful as this song did. Props to Marie Digby for writing this amazing song!

Miss Invisible
by Marie Digby


Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

The Invisible Ones

My cousin showed me this poem, and I absolutely fell in love with it. It was written by an anonymous teenager, and it will touch your heart.

The Invisible Ones
by WyndiWingfall

I am the ugly one,
The outlier in skinny-model-land.
You think me stupid and fat,
The duckling that remained grotesque.
Eyes slide past me,
Wishing I would take another seat.
But I stay, cramped and wretched,
Watching the world.

I am the poor one,
The result of unkept promises.
You look at me, pitying, contemptuous
I can’t chase my despair away with a match.
Eyes slide past me,
Longing to pass on the used toy.
But I stay, clinging to dream confetti,
Watching the world.

I am the quiet one,
The wallflower in the corner.
You wonder why I’m here at all
I don’t limit myself with words.
Eyes slide past me,
Wanting the caterpillar to become a butterfly.
But I stay, singing in silence,
Watching the world.

I am the crazy one,
The caged bird of the rehab center.
You scorn me, are frightened of me,
Hate my neon-pink thorns.
Eyes slide past me,
Already judging, guillotine ready.
But I stay, laughing, crying,
Watching the world.

You do not see us,
But we are there.
You do not hear us,
But we are there.
We watch the world,
But you don’t watch us.
We are the loneliest
And yet the least lonely.
We are the Invisible Ones.

The Happy Post

Today, I'm feeling uncharacteristically down. I hate feeling sad because all I want to do is turn up the air condition, curl up in bed, and go to sleep. I've been sleeping too much as it is, so I've decided to attempt to cheer myself up, as moronic as that sounds, by listing all the things I can think of at this moment that make me feel happy no matter what's going on.

1. Waking up and realizing I have time to go back to sleep
2. Waking up and realizing it’s a Saturday
3. BREAKFAST
4. Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
5. Mylifeisaverage.com
6. Dancing to good music when nobody’s watching
7. Pajamas
8. Primetime TV (gossip girl, glee, house, CSI, grey’s, etc)
9. “I Gotta A Feeling” by the Black Eyed Peas
10. A stranger holding open a door for me
11. Talking all night about the most ordinary things
12. Knowing that even if I’m feeling like crap, I made someone smile
13. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
14. Watching Jeopardy and getting a question right
15. My two dogs who are ALWAYS excited to see me
16. Free tastes of absolutely anything
17. The Ellen Show
18. When school is cancelled out of the blue
19. When the underdog wins

And just for right now..

20. Nintendo